5 paper down, and I’m left with one for this semester.
It’s the toughest of them all, and the one I fear most.
Flung both midterms carrying 15% each, scoring below average.
It’s only 1.5 days away, and I’m so unprepared.
My basics for this mod is weak. I don’t know how am I gonna face the paper on Friday.
Times like this, it’s hard not to think I’m not smart. It’s hard to think I’m good enough when I see my peers doing far better than me while I still struggle with stuffs from midterm.
Throughout the whole semester I was very distracted, even more than the past 2 sems.
I’m at this point tonight where I feel like I’m losing: my grades, my girl (though she ain’t mine yet).
I won’t deny that I’ve been pretty distracted because of her.
Still, I’m proud to say I did make an effort to try and reconnect, to be friends again. Instead of running from my fears, I chose to face it.
Though I’m still not there yet, one day I will get there. I’ll get them both (grades and girl) anyway.
I will achieve my goals.