What if

Was just viewing a snap story of one of my ex-sheep and I can’t help but feel some sadness within.

I was the cell leader then. I had a fair share of biblical knowledge and experiences, but I was pretty self-centred. Of course, I wouldn’t think I was until I looked back on it now. 

I wish I knew what it meant to be a cell leader, what it meant to pay the price to lead and groom people. I wish I put in more effort in getting to know their hearts, giving much thought to how I can raise them up. I wish I had worked on myself more instead of trying to run away from my fears and insecurities. 

I wonder where would they be now if I had invested my life in theirs. I wonder what they would have become if I didn’t care so much about my own inadequacies but focused on their well being as their leader.


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